The following are entries made to Alex's Caringbridge guestbook on March 19. 2006
Kat and family - I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your beautiful baby boy. He sounds like a real fighter, and I am glad that you have those last few minutes of precious time with him to hold onto.
~Bree
Kat and family
No words will ever take away your pain, but please know that I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Crystal
What a cute little boy! I'm so sorry for your loss. He is together with my little angel in God's beautiful garden.
God Bless his little soul.
^i^ Caroline's Mommy, Sarah
Alex is a beautiful little boy. Thank you so much for sharing his story with us. You are in our thoughts and prayers.
Kara Joey's Mommy
Sunday, March 19, 2006
How am I suppose to do this?
I can't figure out how I'm 'suppose' to act or feel. As a mother I think a lot of us think about losing a child, about how that would be and how we would feel but so far I'm just in a fog. Sometimes the emotions come strong and I'm left sitting on the floor sobbing and feeling physical pain in my heart, other times I'm laughing and remembering those long weeks in the hospital.
Today I've been calling everyone a 'bad egg' remembering nurse Lori and how she'd point her finger at Alex and say 'your a bad egg mister'. It made me giggle then and still does. People must think i'm crazy, off my rocker.
I miss Alex, I miss the people at the hospital that we had come to know and feel like I've not only lost a son, but an entire family. I've been running at mach 20 for 7 weeks and now that were home without him there's nothing to do, I feel lost.
Just like always, Craig and I are opposites. He cannot stand to read Alex's guestbook, or look through the things from the hospital. I on the other hand have thrown myself into it all, organizing his things, researching heart defects, posting on message boards.
Even though Alex gave us signs for days that the end was near, and I saw those signs and I think without realizing, prepared myself somewhat; his death still came as such a surprise. It was so fast. It's so hard to beleive that 4 days ago he was here, and then in the blink of an eye he is gone.
I think about the night before he died. I was at the hospital and I spent more time than usual at his bedside ( I tended to spend a few minutes touching him, then sit in the rocker and watch him, and repeat this process over and over) . I touched every part of him that I could through that evening. He seemed so at peace. A little tiny speck in my mind thought something wasn't right. His sats were bouncing around and I thought his fingers looked duskier than normal, his fingernails were a deep purple. It didn't occur to me that the next time I would see him would be to see them doing chest compressions on him.
I feel a lot of guilt. I regret that we didn't bring the video camera to the hospital and videotape every moment of his life. I regret that we didn't take more pictures. I feel guilty that he was born 4 weeks early, maybe if he had those last 4 weeks to grow he would have been stronger and better able to fight. So many things I would have tried to do differently had I only known.
I am grateful for the time we spent. God was so patient with us, waiting until we had learned some valuable lessons before he took Alex home. Alex was so patient with us, hanging on until we were as ready as we ever could have been to deal with this pain. I know 2 months ago we were not strong enough to live through this, Alex made us strong enough.
Yesterday we made funeral arrangements, tomorrow we pick out his stone. It is so surreal. The pastor told me we haven't begun to grieve yet, we are still in shock and that scares me. It scares me because the emotions are so strong, the pain is so raw that I don't know what Ii'll do if it gets worse.
I feel at peace in some ways. When I was running to the hospital that day I knew he was passing. When it happened the pain I felt was so extreme I thought my own heart would stop beating then and there. Then as the day went on I felt this overwhelming sense of releif. Releif that he wasn't huring anymore and I still feel that. I feel him all around me but no longer have to see him hurting, see his wounds and the constant oozing of blood from one site or another. He isn't hurting anymore. All he knew in life was pain and that has finally ceased, I'm grateful for that.
This peom will be on his memorial...
God saw you getting tired
and a cure was not to be
So he put his arms around you
and said 'Alexander come with me'
With tearful eyes we watched
And saw you fade away
Although we love you dearly
We could not make you stay
A special heart stopped beating
Your body it did rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best
Fly high little bubba, fly high.
Today I've been calling everyone a 'bad egg' remembering nurse Lori and how she'd point her finger at Alex and say 'your a bad egg mister'. It made me giggle then and still does. People must think i'm crazy, off my rocker.
I miss Alex, I miss the people at the hospital that we had come to know and feel like I've not only lost a son, but an entire family. I've been running at mach 20 for 7 weeks and now that were home without him there's nothing to do, I feel lost.
Just like always, Craig and I are opposites. He cannot stand to read Alex's guestbook, or look through the things from the hospital. I on the other hand have thrown myself into it all, organizing his things, researching heart defects, posting on message boards.
Even though Alex gave us signs for days that the end was near, and I saw those signs and I think without realizing, prepared myself somewhat; his death still came as such a surprise. It was so fast. It's so hard to beleive that 4 days ago he was here, and then in the blink of an eye he is gone.
I think about the night before he died. I was at the hospital and I spent more time than usual at his bedside ( I tended to spend a few minutes touching him, then sit in the rocker and watch him, and repeat this process over and over) . I touched every part of him that I could through that evening. He seemed so at peace. A little tiny speck in my mind thought something wasn't right. His sats were bouncing around and I thought his fingers looked duskier than normal, his fingernails were a deep purple. It didn't occur to me that the next time I would see him would be to see them doing chest compressions on him.
I feel a lot of guilt. I regret that we didn't bring the video camera to the hospital and videotape every moment of his life. I regret that we didn't take more pictures. I feel guilty that he was born 4 weeks early, maybe if he had those last 4 weeks to grow he would have been stronger and better able to fight. So many things I would have tried to do differently had I only known.
I am grateful for the time we spent. God was so patient with us, waiting until we had learned some valuable lessons before he took Alex home. Alex was so patient with us, hanging on until we were as ready as we ever could have been to deal with this pain. I know 2 months ago we were not strong enough to live through this, Alex made us strong enough.
Yesterday we made funeral arrangements, tomorrow we pick out his stone. It is so surreal. The pastor told me we haven't begun to grieve yet, we are still in shock and that scares me. It scares me because the emotions are so strong, the pain is so raw that I don't know what Ii'll do if it gets worse.
I feel at peace in some ways. When I was running to the hospital that day I knew he was passing. When it happened the pain I felt was so extreme I thought my own heart would stop beating then and there. Then as the day went on I felt this overwhelming sense of releif. Releif that he wasn't huring anymore and I still feel that. I feel him all around me but no longer have to see him hurting, see his wounds and the constant oozing of blood from one site or another. He isn't hurting anymore. All he knew in life was pain and that has finally ceased, I'm grateful for that.
This peom will be on his memorial...
God saw you getting tired
and a cure was not to be
So he put his arms around you
and said 'Alexander come with me'
With tearful eyes we watched
And saw you fade away
Although we love you dearly
We could not make you stay
A special heart stopped beating
Your body it did rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best
Fly high little bubba, fly high.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Guestbook entries for 3/18/06
The following are entries made to Alex's Caringbridge guestbook on March 18, 2006
I'm sorry to hear of his passing.
Tina
I am so very sorry for your loss. You, your family, and your Angel in Heaven are in my prayers.
Beth N
Your entire family is in my prayers. I just read his whole stories and found my self full of so much hope during the good times, and sad to hear about his passing. He was so very strong, and so were you and your family. may God give you all the strength to get through this and the times to come.
Tiffany
Dear Kat and family,
Please know you are in my thoughts. I am so truly sorry for your loss. I have had you all in my prayers since the beginning and I truly look up to you Kat. I know we all keep saying how strong you are..but you are truly an exeptional woman. I think of your guys daily and you have help me appreciate my own life more. Thank you.
Lisa Cossette Cskye
Dear Kat, I'm so sorry for your loss, you and your family are in my prayers, it's nice that you all got a chance to say goodbye to him in your own, stay strong for Alex, trust me he is watching over you......
~*~Monique~*~(
I am so sorry for you loss of Alex. Just wanted you to know that your family is being thought of and prayed for. May God's peace surround you and know that Alex is in God's hands with all the other little angel babies that were taken too soon.
Kristin Ryan
Kat and family - may God watch over you during this time. We thought about you guys often and kept little Alex in our prayers every day. Sorry to hear of your loss.
God Bless,Jessica & Trevor
Kat i'm sorry to hear of alex passing
love Stephanie and family
I cannot express the deep sympathy I feel for you and your family Kat. Words can never ease the pain, but know that many are praying for you, your family and your new Angel.
Toni,Leif,Hunter,Isabelle, and Fisher Anderson
Kat and family we are so sorry to hear about your loss. You are all in our prayers. Please know that your little angle is at peace and in the best hand possible now. God Bless.
Carl, Lori Emily and Anna
A friend shared your carepage. I am so sorry about the loss of your precious alexander. We lost our Noah almost 5 years ago. Alexander will never be forgotten. You will keep his memory alive with every breath you take.Valerie
I happened upon your story on Baby Center. I want you to know that Alex was a beautiful baby and I am so very sorry for your loss. I will pray for strength, comfort, and peace for you and your family.
Christi in Kansas
Kat and family,
I know there are no words that can replace your loss of your sweet little baby, but I have witnessed the outpouring of love for you in chat, and I just wanted to offer my condolences. God bless. (sugarpuddin78)
Brandi Baker
Your little one is beautiful. My heart is full of prayers for you and your family. I have not had the chance to read the whole story but the bit I have was beautifully written. Take your time to heal and know that Alex will always be with you. All our love and prayers.
Tiffany Parker
I'm sorry to hear of his passing.
Tina
I am so very sorry for your loss. You, your family, and your Angel in Heaven are in my prayers.
Beth N
Your entire family is in my prayers. I just read his whole stories and found my self full of so much hope during the good times, and sad to hear about his passing. He was so very strong, and so were you and your family. may God give you all the strength to get through this and the times to come.
Tiffany
Dear Kat and family,
Please know you are in my thoughts. I am so truly sorry for your loss. I have had you all in my prayers since the beginning and I truly look up to you Kat. I know we all keep saying how strong you are..but you are truly an exeptional woman. I think of your guys daily and you have help me appreciate my own life more. Thank you.
Lisa Cossette Cskye
Dear Kat, I'm so sorry for your loss, you and your family are in my prayers, it's nice that you all got a chance to say goodbye to him in your own, stay strong for Alex, trust me he is watching over you......
~*~Monique~*~(
I am so sorry for you loss of Alex. Just wanted you to know that your family is being thought of and prayed for. May God's peace surround you and know that Alex is in God's hands with all the other little angel babies that were taken too soon.
Kristin Ryan
Kat and family - may God watch over you during this time. We thought about you guys often and kept little Alex in our prayers every day. Sorry to hear of your loss.
God Bless,Jessica & Trevor
Kat i'm sorry to hear of alex passing
love Stephanie and family
I cannot express the deep sympathy I feel for you and your family Kat. Words can never ease the pain, but know that many are praying for you, your family and your new Angel.
Toni,Leif,Hunter,Isabelle, and Fisher Anderson
Kat and family we are so sorry to hear about your loss. You are all in our prayers. Please know that your little angle is at peace and in the best hand possible now. God Bless.
Carl, Lori Emily and Anna
A friend shared your carepage. I am so sorry about the loss of your precious alexander. We lost our Noah almost 5 years ago. Alexander will never be forgotten. You will keep his memory alive with every breath you take.Valerie
I happened upon your story on Baby Center. I want you to know that Alex was a beautiful baby and I am so very sorry for your loss. I will pray for strength, comfort, and peace for you and your family.
Christi in Kansas
Kat and family,
I know there are no words that can replace your loss of your sweet little baby, but I have witnessed the outpouring of love for you in chat, and I just wanted to offer my condolences. God bless. (sugarpuddin78)
Brandi Baker
Your little one is beautiful. My heart is full of prayers for you and your family. I have not had the chance to read the whole story but the bit I have was beautifully written. Take your time to heal and know that Alex will always be with you. All our love and prayers.
Tiffany Parker
Friday, March 17, 2006
Guestbook entries for 3/17/06
The following are entries made to Alex's Caringbridge guestbook on March 17 2006
Kat and Craig and kids...
Im sorry to hear Alex passed away today. I was hoping and praying that he would be able to come home. He was a mighty fighter, giving you so many precious days with him. He isn't hurting now and God will take care of him as you would. God Bless.
Love ,
The Gillmore Family
You, and your family, are in my thoughts and prayers Kat. If you ever need to talk, cry, etc let me know and I will either talk with you via pm or call you. I just wish there was more I could do :(
Meghan Marcusse
Kat & Family, I cannot imagine what you are going through, but I do know that Alex is a very special little boy and he is watching over all of you, and although he was only here for a short time, he has touched so many lives. I wish that i could be there to hug you in person, but instead my prayers for you will have to do.
much love
Stephanie C
I can't take away your pain, I can't whisper a magic phrase to take away your sadness, but I can hold some of it for you for a time. My heart aches for you, and a bit of all of us left this world with little Alex today. I feel a bit of peace knowing our children have another guardian angel, and one who was loved so very very much. Time and love will ease your pain...one day at a time...and all the way we're out here all over the world loving you and praying for your family.
Beca, Tony, Greg, Nick and Sofia Amico
Kat, Craig, and Family,
I echo the words others have written here. Superbaby's little spirit and yours has made me a better person. Know that you all are in my heart and my prayers during this sad time.
Love Jessica and Family
I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Maria
I am so sorry for your loss.
My thoughts and prayers are with you all.
Michelle Tierney
Kat and Family~
I am so sorry for you loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time.
Heidi Toyne
Kat and family--my thoughts and prayers are with you. I am so sorry for your loss. May God be with you.
Lora
Alex was a fighter that will be missed by so many people. My thoughts and prayers are with you Kat, Craig and your children. Thanks for giving us the opportunity to get to know little Alexander, he has touched so many lives, he will be greatly missed.
Shannon Schutz
Darling Alexander you strong and faithful fighter,You came of this world in a whirlwind of miracles,It's not clear what the Lord has planned for you,but it is clear that He needed you with Him more.He brought you to your mommy and daddy to share your love with them,You did that and more they love you oh so very much,You all got to share your love if only for a while,You fought so very hard with trials every mile,our thoughts and prayers are with you all,they have been all the while.My deepest sympathies Kat and Craig and Family.Di, Steve, Cindy and Jasmine
kat .....i am so sorry. i wish there was something i could do for you and your family.. my heart goes out to you in your time of solice. please remember im here for you if you need a shoulder to cry on. i know its not much but i want you to know that i am here. my God protect him and keep him safe and warm. Alex.. u have been loved and will continue to be loved in your eternal life with God. remember you are specail and no one can take that away from you. NO ONE!
SHAn from Wisconsin!
Kat and family I was wanting to let you know that my family and I will be praying for you and your family. May God be with you through this time.
Heather Gabaldon
Kat and Craig, you guys are in my thoughts and prayers. Alex was a fighter and was loved by many. He will be truly missed.
Brandy Gatz
Im so sorry for your loss , I know words can not help any right now. but please know that God will not put more on you than you can handle :) I went through this in Novemeber 2004 when i lost my daughter to Hydranencephaly she was 11 weeks old! there is a book called "Mommy please dont cry" its AMAZING it helped me alot and maybe it can help you :) my prayers and thoughts are with you!
May Alexander keep you under his new wings :)
Jessica Randall
Sorry to hear about the loss of Alex. I have no idea how hard it is to lose a child but Kat (and family) please know that he is in great hands, now, also. My grandma passed away a week ago today and be rest assured that she is keeping an eye on your precious angel. Hugs & Kisses!
Mary Gillies
Kat and Craig and childern, my deepest sympathy goes to you and your family at this terrible loss...I pray for your family to have the strenght to carry on and to love eachother more and stronger..Baby Alex will always be in our hearts and we know he's watching over us along with all the angels in heaven..God Bless you and your family now and forever
Sonja Frazier
Kat and family-
I'm so sorry to hear about Alex. I can't even imagine the pain you guys are going through right now. He's with God now so rest assure he's in a better place. Again I'm so sorry, you know we're all hear to talk when you need us.
Diana, Jeff, Haylee, and Ashton
Your story has truly touched me and I am aching right now thinking of how difficult this must be for you. Alexander is a beautiful baby and I bet he looks gorgeous with his wings in Heaven. I pray that you can find comfort and solace in this tough time. Best Wishes and Deepest Sympathies to you and your family!
Lora Denton
I am so sorry to hear about your lose. I know Alex will be in your hearts forever. You are in my thoughts and prayerss. I wish your family the best.
Susan L
kat and family, i was so devestated to hear about alex passing, he was such a special lil miracle and still is. god has a higher purpose for him and i know hes a beautiful angel up there. there are some things i can never find the right words for and this is one of those times. i admire you and have always thought of you as a great mother, someone who i would like to be more like. this is going to be the hardest thing you have ever had to go through, but find strength in god and comfort in knowing hes not in any more pain and free from tubes and monitors. hes going to help do great things as the lord intended for him to do. be strong all of you. hes loved more then anyone will ever know!. if you need ANYTHING that i can do PLEASE let me know! we all love you guys kat, just take 1 day as it comes and cherish every minute that beautiful boy was in your life. were all here for you. take care and be strong.with all my love and thoughts melissa (spice) we love you all!!!
melissa meyers
Kat and Family...
I just wanted to say that my prayers are with you and your family in this sad time.
Christina
God bless you all. I am a July 05 mommy from BBC. I know that the angels are rejoicing in heaven today as they are welcoming your precious son. I promise I'll be praying for you and your family. Tina
Tina Christensen
Words cannot ease your pain, I am saddened for you and for the loss of your son....peace to you all.
elana weisberg
Words cannot properly express my condolences or your grief. I am from the Sept 05 BBC board and all our love and strength is coming out to you today and all the days after. I will be praying for your family and your little angel.
Christie
Kat, my heart goes out to you and your family. I'm so sorry that your sweet angel was taken from you, and I can't even begin to imagine how hard this has been on you and your family. What little Alex went through just doesn't seem fair. Your family is in my prayers.
Amy
I'm praying for your whole family...(((hugs)))))))))scheatham June '06 Babycenter
Sandy Cheatham
Kat, I'm so sorry for your loss. Little Alex was a fighter and you made his life wonderful. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Lighting a Candle
Jessica
I just want to say I am so sorry for your lose. I started crying the moment I started reading your story. I cant even imagine what you are going thru. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Lindsay Topping
I want to say I am so sorry for your loss. I am a friend of the Sharkeys (little Luke) and Becky and Todd asked us to watch over your little one online and pray for him. In this hard time know that there are many people thinking of you and you are not alone.
Heather
My heart goes out to you and your family. I'm so sorry that your little boy was taken from you, and I can't even begin to imagine how hard this has been on you and your family. You and your family are in my prayers.
Anthea - Kansas
I am so sorry to hear of Alexander's passing. He was an amazing little boy. Peace be with you all.
BabyCenter Mom (Oct. 04/Aug 06)
Niko's Mommy
Sharon Karamanol
I wish that you could have held your little boy just awhile longer. Thank you for sharing his life, and helping others remember what a precious gift our children our. I'll be hugging mine a little tighter, and playing a little longer. Blessings to your family now and always.
Molly P
I'm so sorry to hear about your little one's passing. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. He was a beautiful little boy.BBC Mom Aug 02/Oct 04/Mar 06
Sara Wiehn
I am so sorry about the loss of your beautiful little boy. (((hugs)))
Lisa Kippes
my heart is breaking for you and your family. I know i don't know you at all but my prayers and love are with you and your family. I am truly so very sorry for your loss.
Lee Mackanin
I am sorry to hear about your son's death. May God continue to watch over your family as during this time. God bless.
Jackie Middleton
I am so sorry for your loss. What a heartbreaking story. Prayers and hugs to you and your family.
Kristen Thompson
I am so very sorry for your loss. Your entire family is in my thoughts and prayers. Alexander must have been a very special baby.
Miranda Traylor
What a sweet & brave little boy.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
May God be with you now and always.
Hugs,
Kim
Your family is in our thoughts and prayers... May God bless you in this terrible time. Melissa
I am so sorry for your loss. Alexander was such a strong, brave little boy. I will keep your family in my thoughts and my prayers. God Bless you all!
Melanie
My heart breaks for you right now. I am praying for you and your little angel in heaven. God Bless you all.
Amber
Alex,
We only knew you for such a short while, but you and your family have touched our lives in a very special way. We know that you are in a better place and are able to bask in the glory of heaven. Remember to keep watch of your older siblings, and to remind mom and dad to continue to be the strong and courageous people that we have come to know. We will miss you, and we pray for your continued care up in heaven, and for your family.
Love,
Todd, Becky, & Luke Sharkey
I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers! God Speed!
Deanna M
I am a member of BBC (April 06 board). I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
Cassandra Hernandez
I'm from May 2005 BBC Board. I just wanted to send my sympathy to your family. I'm so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers.
lela whipple
I am so very sorry on the loss of your precious son. I am praying for God to give you comfort, strength and peace. Fly high baby Angel Alexander!
love and prayers,
Debbie Campbell
My heart breaks for your family. May your family find strength in eachother. Alex is dancing on clouds. What a sight that must be. How blessed you are to have had him.
Denise
I am extremely sorry to read about your loss. May the little soul rest in peace and may God give you and your family the strength to live on.
Jaya Dasgupta
I am so sorry to hear about your loss... you and your family are in my heart and prayers. God bless you and your little angel.
Tamrah
May the Lord give you strength, my prayers are with you. The angels above are holding your dear Alexander, who is free from tubes and pain. He will sleep in peace. God bless you!
Julie Jones
Kat and family-
All day long I've been tearful over the loss of your precious little baby boy. What a tremendous roller coaster you and your family has ridden over the past weeks, and how brave and strong you all are. I'm sure that there are no words that could ever soothe your aching souls right now, and there may not be any comfoting thoughts, but Alex is in a place all his own where he can breathe and be a littlle boy. He'll always be watching over you and always remember how much you loved him and cared for him in the short time he was with us on this earth. I don't know you from anywhere else but BBC, but you and your family are truly an amazing inspiration! Thank you for sharing Alex's life with us! I will continue to pray for you and hope that you find comfort soon.
BBC Mom February '05
Katie Stoltz
I'm so sorry about the loss of your beautiful son. Your family is in my prayers.
Karlee
My heart cries with you.Your baby is precious.May the good Lord take care of you and your family in the days ahead. Be strong and never give up hope.
R J
I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby boy. The story of Alex touched me deeply and I will keep him, and your family, in my thoughts and prayers.
Desiree Lainen\
Kat and Craig and kids...
Im sorry to hear Alex passed away today. I was hoping and praying that he would be able to come home. He was a mighty fighter, giving you so many precious days with him. He isn't hurting now and God will take care of him as you would. God Bless.
Love ,
The Gillmore Family
You, and your family, are in my thoughts and prayers Kat. If you ever need to talk, cry, etc let me know and I will either talk with you via pm or call you. I just wish there was more I could do :(
Meghan Marcusse
Kat & Family, I cannot imagine what you are going through, but I do know that Alex is a very special little boy and he is watching over all of you, and although he was only here for a short time, he has touched so many lives. I wish that i could be there to hug you in person, but instead my prayers for you will have to do.
much love
Stephanie C
I can't take away your pain, I can't whisper a magic phrase to take away your sadness, but I can hold some of it for you for a time. My heart aches for you, and a bit of all of us left this world with little Alex today. I feel a bit of peace knowing our children have another guardian angel, and one who was loved so very very much. Time and love will ease your pain...one day at a time...and all the way we're out here all over the world loving you and praying for your family.
Beca, Tony, Greg, Nick and Sofia Amico
Kat, Craig, and Family,
I echo the words others have written here. Superbaby's little spirit and yours has made me a better person. Know that you all are in my heart and my prayers during this sad time.
Love Jessica and Family
I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Maria
I am so sorry for your loss.
My thoughts and prayers are with you all.
Michelle Tierney
Kat and Family~
I am so sorry for you loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time.
Heidi Toyne
Kat and family--my thoughts and prayers are with you. I am so sorry for your loss. May God be with you.
Lora
Alex was a fighter that will be missed by so many people. My thoughts and prayers are with you Kat, Craig and your children. Thanks for giving us the opportunity to get to know little Alexander, he has touched so many lives, he will be greatly missed.
Shannon Schutz
Darling Alexander you strong and faithful fighter,You came of this world in a whirlwind of miracles,It's not clear what the Lord has planned for you,but it is clear that He needed you with Him more.He brought you to your mommy and daddy to share your love with them,You did that and more they love you oh so very much,You all got to share your love if only for a while,You fought so very hard with trials every mile,our thoughts and prayers are with you all,they have been all the while.My deepest sympathies Kat and Craig and Family.Di, Steve, Cindy and Jasmine
kat .....i am so sorry. i wish there was something i could do for you and your family.. my heart goes out to you in your time of solice. please remember im here for you if you need a shoulder to cry on. i know its not much but i want you to know that i am here. my God protect him and keep him safe and warm. Alex.. u have been loved and will continue to be loved in your eternal life with God. remember you are specail and no one can take that away from you. NO ONE!
SHAn from Wisconsin!
Kat and family I was wanting to let you know that my family and I will be praying for you and your family. May God be with you through this time.
Heather Gabaldon
Kat and Craig, you guys are in my thoughts and prayers. Alex was a fighter and was loved by many. He will be truly missed.
Brandy Gatz
Im so sorry for your loss , I know words can not help any right now. but please know that God will not put more on you than you can handle :) I went through this in Novemeber 2004 when i lost my daughter to Hydranencephaly she was 11 weeks old! there is a book called "Mommy please dont cry" its AMAZING it helped me alot and maybe it can help you :) my prayers and thoughts are with you!
May Alexander keep you under his new wings :)
Jessica Randall
Sorry to hear about the loss of Alex. I have no idea how hard it is to lose a child but Kat (and family) please know that he is in great hands, now, also. My grandma passed away a week ago today and be rest assured that she is keeping an eye on your precious angel. Hugs & Kisses!
Mary Gillies
Kat and Craig and childern, my deepest sympathy goes to you and your family at this terrible loss...I pray for your family to have the strenght to carry on and to love eachother more and stronger..Baby Alex will always be in our hearts and we know he's watching over us along with all the angels in heaven..God Bless you and your family now and forever
Sonja Frazier
Kat and family-
I'm so sorry to hear about Alex. I can't even imagine the pain you guys are going through right now. He's with God now so rest assure he's in a better place. Again I'm so sorry, you know we're all hear to talk when you need us.
Diana, Jeff, Haylee, and Ashton
Your story has truly touched me and I am aching right now thinking of how difficult this must be for you. Alexander is a beautiful baby and I bet he looks gorgeous with his wings in Heaven. I pray that you can find comfort and solace in this tough time. Best Wishes and Deepest Sympathies to you and your family!
Lora Denton
I am so sorry to hear about your lose. I know Alex will be in your hearts forever. You are in my thoughts and prayerss. I wish your family the best.
Susan L
kat and family, i was so devestated to hear about alex passing, he was such a special lil miracle and still is. god has a higher purpose for him and i know hes a beautiful angel up there. there are some things i can never find the right words for and this is one of those times. i admire you and have always thought of you as a great mother, someone who i would like to be more like. this is going to be the hardest thing you have ever had to go through, but find strength in god and comfort in knowing hes not in any more pain and free from tubes and monitors. hes going to help do great things as the lord intended for him to do. be strong all of you. hes loved more then anyone will ever know!. if you need ANYTHING that i can do PLEASE let me know! we all love you guys kat, just take 1 day as it comes and cherish every minute that beautiful boy was in your life. were all here for you. take care and be strong.with all my love and thoughts melissa (spice) we love you all!!!
melissa meyers
Kat and Family...
I just wanted to say that my prayers are with you and your family in this sad time.
Christina
God bless you all. I am a July 05 mommy from BBC. I know that the angels are rejoicing in heaven today as they are welcoming your precious son. I promise I'll be praying for you and your family. Tina
Tina Christensen
Words cannot ease your pain, I am saddened for you and for the loss of your son....peace to you all.
elana weisberg
Words cannot properly express my condolences or your grief. I am from the Sept 05 BBC board and all our love and strength is coming out to you today and all the days after. I will be praying for your family and your little angel.
Christie
Kat, my heart goes out to you and your family. I'm so sorry that your sweet angel was taken from you, and I can't even begin to imagine how hard this has been on you and your family. What little Alex went through just doesn't seem fair. Your family is in my prayers.
Amy
I'm praying for your whole family...(((hugs)))))))))scheatham June '06 Babycenter
Sandy Cheatham
Kat, I'm so sorry for your loss. Little Alex was a fighter and you made his life wonderful. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Lighting a Candle
Jessica
I just want to say I am so sorry for your lose. I started crying the moment I started reading your story. I cant even imagine what you are going thru. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Lindsay Topping
I want to say I am so sorry for your loss. I am a friend of the Sharkeys (little Luke) and Becky and Todd asked us to watch over your little one online and pray for him. In this hard time know that there are many people thinking of you and you are not alone.
Heather
My heart goes out to you and your family. I'm so sorry that your little boy was taken from you, and I can't even begin to imagine how hard this has been on you and your family. You and your family are in my prayers.
Anthea - Kansas
I am so sorry to hear of Alexander's passing. He was an amazing little boy. Peace be with you all.
BabyCenter Mom (Oct. 04/Aug 06)
Niko's Mommy
Sharon Karamanol
I wish that you could have held your little boy just awhile longer. Thank you for sharing his life, and helping others remember what a precious gift our children our. I'll be hugging mine a little tighter, and playing a little longer. Blessings to your family now and always.
Molly P
I'm so sorry to hear about your little one's passing. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. He was a beautiful little boy.BBC Mom Aug 02/Oct 04/Mar 06
Sara Wiehn
I am so sorry about the loss of your beautiful little boy. (((hugs)))
Lisa Kippes
my heart is breaking for you and your family. I know i don't know you at all but my prayers and love are with you and your family. I am truly so very sorry for your loss.
Lee Mackanin
I am sorry to hear about your son's death. May God continue to watch over your family as during this time. God bless.
Jackie Middleton
I am so sorry for your loss. What a heartbreaking story. Prayers and hugs to you and your family.
Kristen Thompson
I am so very sorry for your loss. Your entire family is in my thoughts and prayers. Alexander must have been a very special baby.
Miranda Traylor
What a sweet & brave little boy.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
May God be with you now and always.
Hugs,
Kim
Your family is in our thoughts and prayers... May God bless you in this terrible time. Melissa
I am so sorry for your loss. Alexander was such a strong, brave little boy. I will keep your family in my thoughts and my prayers. God Bless you all!
Melanie
My heart breaks for you right now. I am praying for you and your little angel in heaven. God Bless you all.
Amber
Alex,
We only knew you for such a short while, but you and your family have touched our lives in a very special way. We know that you are in a better place and are able to bask in the glory of heaven. Remember to keep watch of your older siblings, and to remind mom and dad to continue to be the strong and courageous people that we have come to know. We will miss you, and we pray for your continued care up in heaven, and for your family.
Love,
Todd, Becky, & Luke Sharkey
I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers! God Speed!
Deanna M
I am a member of BBC (April 06 board). I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
Cassandra Hernandez
I'm from May 2005 BBC Board. I just wanted to send my sympathy to your family. I'm so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers.
lela whipple
I am so very sorry on the loss of your precious son. I am praying for God to give you comfort, strength and peace. Fly high baby Angel Alexander!
love and prayers,
Debbie Campbell
My heart breaks for your family. May your family find strength in eachother. Alex is dancing on clouds. What a sight that must be. How blessed you are to have had him.
Denise
I am extremely sorry to read about your loss. May the little soul rest in peace and may God give you and your family the strength to live on.
Jaya Dasgupta
I am so sorry to hear about your loss... you and your family are in my heart and prayers. God bless you and your little angel.
Tamrah
May the Lord give you strength, my prayers are with you. The angels above are holding your dear Alexander, who is free from tubes and pain. He will sleep in peace. God bless you!
Julie Jones
Kat and family-
All day long I've been tearful over the loss of your precious little baby boy. What a tremendous roller coaster you and your family has ridden over the past weeks, and how brave and strong you all are. I'm sure that there are no words that could ever soothe your aching souls right now, and there may not be any comfoting thoughts, but Alex is in a place all his own where he can breathe and be a littlle boy. He'll always be watching over you and always remember how much you loved him and cared for him in the short time he was with us on this earth. I don't know you from anywhere else but BBC, but you and your family are truly an amazing inspiration! Thank you for sharing Alex's life with us! I will continue to pray for you and hope that you find comfort soon.
BBC Mom February '05
Katie Stoltz
I'm so sorry about the loss of your beautiful son. Your family is in my prayers.
Karlee
My heart cries with you.Your baby is precious.May the good Lord take care of you and your family in the days ahead. Be strong and never give up hope.
R J
I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby boy. The story of Alex touched me deeply and I will keep him, and your family, in my thoughts and prayers.
Desiree Lainen\
Thursday, March 16, 2006
A peice of our hearts left earth today
Alexander passed away today. Craig called me from the hospital at 11-ish and told me that Alex's chest x-ray had come back better (his right upper lobe was cloudy last night) and that he had one blood pressure dip and they got it back up.
About 10 minutes later I got a phone call from a nurse saying Alex had taken a turn for the worse. After running in my pajamas through the snow to the hospital I walked into his room and there were many doctors and nurses. I asked if he was coding, and they said yes. A couple ofo his doctors took Craig and I to another room and said that they were waiting on the results of an echo and x-ray. We all knew they wouldn't show anything that could be fixed, Dr D was even tearing up. They said to give them 5 minutes and Craig and I went to call some family.
We came back into his room and as expected they told us that the tests hadn't revealed anything. We went to his bedside and told them to stop chest compressions. We kissed him and told him we loved him and it was time to go.
The staff was wonderful. We got to hold him right away and after a few minutes I asked them to please take the breathing tube and chest tubes out, we wanted to see him without all of that junk for the first time since the day he was born. A staff member of the Ronald Mcdonald house brought the kids up.
We all made handprints and wrote a little message to Alex on the posterboard, the kids all held him and said thier goodbye's. They let us stay as long as we wanted.
We got to bathe him and dress him in one of the outfits we had bought for him, they made a plaster mold with his hands holding our fingers and his feet. They made the whole thing extremely special and as easy as possible for us and although this is probably the hardest day of our lives, we will always cherish the love and sincerity of the staff at U of M. I know his caregivers loved him and allowed us many nights of sleep because we trusted them.
Thank you everyone for the outpouring of love and prayers you've sent. Alex definitely fought and is the smallest yet strongest person we have ever met. And we are very proud of be able to call him our son, even if God needed him more than we do.
UPDATE: The services for Alexander will be held on Tuesday March 21. Veiwing will be at 9am and service at 11am. at Chetek Lutheran Church, 1419 2nd street Chetek Wisconsin 54728.
If anyone would like to donate in honor of Alexander, please do so to the Children's heart foundation at
http://www.childrensheart.org
which will use your money to further research ways to help kids with congenital heart defects.
or to the Ronald Mcdonald Charities at http://www.rmhc..org
About 10 minutes later I got a phone call from a nurse saying Alex had taken a turn for the worse. After running in my pajamas through the snow to the hospital I walked into his room and there were many doctors and nurses. I asked if he was coding, and they said yes. A couple ofo his doctors took Craig and I to another room and said that they were waiting on the results of an echo and x-ray. We all knew they wouldn't show anything that could be fixed, Dr D was even tearing up. They said to give them 5 minutes and Craig and I went to call some family.
We came back into his room and as expected they told us that the tests hadn't revealed anything. We went to his bedside and told them to stop chest compressions. We kissed him and told him we loved him and it was time to go.
The staff was wonderful. We got to hold him right away and after a few minutes I asked them to please take the breathing tube and chest tubes out, we wanted to see him without all of that junk for the first time since the day he was born. A staff member of the Ronald Mcdonald house brought the kids up.
We all made handprints and wrote a little message to Alex on the posterboard, the kids all held him and said thier goodbye's. They let us stay as long as we wanted.
We got to bathe him and dress him in one of the outfits we had bought for him, they made a plaster mold with his hands holding our fingers and his feet. They made the whole thing extremely special and as easy as possible for us and although this is probably the hardest day of our lives, we will always cherish the love and sincerity of the staff at U of M. I know his caregivers loved him and allowed us many nights of sleep because we trusted them.
Thank you everyone for the outpouring of love and prayers you've sent. Alex definitely fought and is the smallest yet strongest person we have ever met. And we are very proud of be able to call him our son, even if God needed him more than we do.
UPDATE: The services for Alexander will be held on Tuesday March 21. Veiwing will be at 9am and service at 11am. at Chetek Lutheran Church, 1419 2nd street Chetek Wisconsin 54728.
If anyone would like to donate in honor of Alexander, please do so to the Children's heart foundation at
http://www.childrensheart.org
which will use your money to further research ways to help kids with congenital heart defects.
or to the Ronald Mcdonald Charities at http://www.rmhc..org
Guestbook entries for 3/16/06
The following are entries to Alex's Caringbridge guestbook on March 16. 2006
Alex,
Keep fighting each and every day. We know how much your family loves you and wants nothing more than for you to feel better. You have been in our prayers, and Luke is pulling for you, too! Keep pushing forward little man!
Love from your floormates on 5C,
Todd, Becky & Luke Sharkey
We just got the news.
No words can help, but know that in God there is strength.
Love Always,
Patrick, Katrina and the BE Family
Dear Kathleen, Craig and family,
I'm just so sorry. There seemed so much hope -- so much possibility. My love and prayers are with all of you.
Gail
go rest high on the mountain Alex
Tricia Myers
God Bless you little man.....Our hearts and prayers are with you, Mommy, Daddy, and your siblings.
Angie Poepping
I know words aren't enough at a sad sad time like this. Just know that i'm here for you if you need an ear to cry to and just someone to vent to. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers during this very difficult time. God has a very special little angel by his side.
Heather Prosser
Blessings to and for the family and friends of little Alex. In your time of sorrow be rest assured Alex will remain in your hearts and your love will guide his spirit and your brightest memories of him will guide you.
Heather N
Dear Kat and family,
I just heard the news a little while ago. I am so sorry for your loss. I know you have to be dying inside and nothing I say will ease your pain. Just know that my prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.
Love,
Dani, Morgan, and Vincent
Dear Kat & family, I'm so sorry. I wish there was more I could say or more I could do. but know a lot of people love yall to death & we all have a special place in our hearts for alex. I will continue to pray for you & your family & I'm sure many others will tooLove always~*Kris*~
Alex,
Keep fighting each and every day. We know how much your family loves you and wants nothing more than for you to feel better. You have been in our prayers, and Luke is pulling for you, too! Keep pushing forward little man!
Love from your floormates on 5C,
Todd, Becky & Luke Sharkey
We just got the news.
No words can help, but know that in God there is strength.
Love Always,
Patrick, Katrina and the BE Family
Dear Kathleen, Craig and family,
I'm just so sorry. There seemed so much hope -- so much possibility. My love and prayers are with all of you.
Gail
go rest high on the mountain Alex
Tricia Myers
God Bless you little man.....Our hearts and prayers are with you, Mommy, Daddy, and your siblings.
Angie Poepping
I know words aren't enough at a sad sad time like this. Just know that i'm here for you if you need an ear to cry to and just someone to vent to. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers during this very difficult time. God has a very special little angel by his side.
Heather Prosser
Blessings to and for the family and friends of little Alex. In your time of sorrow be rest assured Alex will remain in your hearts and your love will guide his spirit and your brightest memories of him will guide you.
Heather N
Dear Kat and family,
I just heard the news a little while ago. I am so sorry for your loss. I know you have to be dying inside and nothing I say will ease your pain. Just know that my prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.
Love,
Dani, Morgan, and Vincent
Dear Kat & family, I'm so sorry. I wish there was more I could say or more I could do. but know a lot of people love yall to death & we all have a special place in our hearts for alex. I will continue to pray for you & your family & I'm sure many others will tooLove always~*Kris*~
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Guestbook entries for 3/15/06
The following are entries made to Alex's Caringbridge guestbook on March 15. 2006
Baby Alex you are in my thoughts and prayers. I started a prayer chain for you little man. Tons of people are praying for you. Don't give up. Kat and family my heart aches for you. If you need anything, ANYTHING please don't hesitate to ask. Thats what we are here for. May God lift you up. Kera
Kera Melton
Baby Alex you are in my thoughts and prayers. I started a prayer chain for you little man. Tons of people are praying for you. Don't give up. Kat and family my heart aches for you. If you need anything, ANYTHING please don't hesitate to ask. Thats what we are here for. May God lift you up. Kera
Kera Melton
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